I have been horrible about keeping up this blog, life has taken us on some interesting turns these days. I find myself so busy that I forget to take the time to sit here and organize my thoughts... My previous posts have all been about my children or other family members, I never really posted about myself, I am told that I am a mystery... so here is a snippet at least about me, supermom extraordinaire.
My entire adult life has been all about me being Mom, ever look back and wonder what happened to the person you were before someone called you mom? I remember a self centered teenager, and here I am 20 years later and 2 of my children have survived into adulthood, the 3rd well on his way, soon mom won't be needed for taxi service, a bandaid, or packing a lunch... what happens when that part of your life is over? Of course I will always be mom, my children are always going to be that shining light in my life, anyone who knows me knows how proudly I wear that mom badge.
Well, I have allowed someone in, this is not easy navigating through the dynamics of this new relationship, we are becoming one, I feel like I have met my soul mate, but there is still part of me that has that nagging doubt in the back of some dark hallway, if I let him into my head, will it scare him off? Never have I met someone who loves my children as much as Luke does, he has such patience with Kevin, I watched him show Kevin how to work on a small engine the other day and thought, wow where has this guy been all my life? He's actually always been there, I knew of him in high school, never thought we would end up together, God works in mysterious ways...
So, now I find myself with a new hat, girlfriend... and a new family dynamic, will I measure up? I sure hope so, more to come...
