feeling at a loss for words

I have been wanting to start blogging, I wasn't sure what I would blog about, my status as a single mother of 3 boys, being a military mom, being a mother to a child with adhd...I guess it would be a good idea to just blog about all of it. Today is different though, today we were very saddened to hear the news that a 7 year old child in our community was killed. Our community is fairly small, we don't know everyone, but we do know alot of people, and for the most part are very friendly with each other. This child was a special needs child, and for whatever reason, his mom's boyfriend decided that his life wasn't worth living...The manner of this child's death is too horrific for words, but the idea that he could not fight back, or scream for help, or run away...tears at my peace and at my false sense of security. As a single mother I struggle daily with so many things, bills, running kids here or there, feeling very lonely, but my children are not all grown up yet. I was scared to be alone, thought I needed a man in my life to feel complete. I don't know when it happened, but one day I realized that I didn't need a man to feel complete because I already had 3 of them... I know that not all mothers feel this way, and its a personal choice, nobody can tell someone else how to live their lives. I will pray for this mother, because I can't imagine surviving what she has gone through today. I hope that one day she will find peace...